I still have well over a month before the school year starts but I'm already getting anxious about subbing again. This will be my third year. I keep thinking back to all the horrible experiences I had in the past two years. Carrots thrown, fights started, unsupportive staff, down right awful kids, and it all makes me feel like I'm a bad teacher.
In teacher school, we were taught about the importance of building relationships and being consistent. They never prepared us for subbing. My first year, I was a much gentler teacher. Last year, my patience went to shit. I feel like I"m downright mean and that's no way to teach. Makes me feel sick just thinking about it.
I applied for two dreams jobs at a dream school. The posting closed a couple of weeks ago so I have given up hope on an interview. I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong other than not being someone they already know. Almost all of my classmates have jobs and they have far less experience than I do. You'd think 7 years of teaching and creating curriculum would get you somewhere.
My ego has taken a huge hit. Hopefully this last month or so of summer will re-energize me and i'll be ready to face the classroom. Thankfully I don't have to do that tomorrow.
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Sunday, July 24, 2011
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
the whole district blows
I was excited to get a half day call for a north end school today. While waiting for the office manager and signing in I met another substitute who told me that the class i was going into was difficult. In fact, in the past a sub actually left at noon when hired for a full day.
Great.
I took a deep breath and headed to the classroom where I met with the teacher. She gave me instructions on what she wanted me to do but was so scattered I realized I would be winging it. Thankfully she printed out a copy of the sub plans....oh wait those were so sparse they were no help at all.
On accident, I arrived at the lunchroom a few minutes too early and got to hear that my class was being so rude they lost pm recess. I no longer had that to hold over their heads. AND I now had 15-20 minutes extra that I needed to fill with no tools.
They lost tomorrow's recess in the first half hour.
They lost the movie (oh, yes part of my sub plans was a movie) shortly after that.
We tried to work on the Social Studies worksheet she gave us. The questions were pretty straight forward but the answers were nowhere in the book. I couldn't even find them. Of course they are going to act up if they can't do the work! So we gave up on it and I did some read aloud.
During the science packet I was watching the clock. I was running out of things to do!! The kids were surprisingly engaged (at least two were kicked out though). I told them if they could continue this behavior then they could earn back the movie time. Little did they know that I had no other option!
No one watched the movie. They were talking, writing notes, throwing things, being jerks.... I told three students their job the next day was to clean the floors. Lord I hope the janitor doesn't come in and clean for them. It was DISGUSTING!
Finally, my 3 hours of these knuckleheads was over. Most of the kids had left. I looked over and not five feet away from me one was writing on the desk with a marker. Guess whose job it is to wash the desks tomorrow?
And how much do you want to bet that teacher won't follow through with the consequences I gave them?
Great.
I took a deep breath and headed to the classroom where I met with the teacher. She gave me instructions on what she wanted me to do but was so scattered I realized I would be winging it. Thankfully she printed out a copy of the sub plans....oh wait those were so sparse they were no help at all.
On accident, I arrived at the lunchroom a few minutes too early and got to hear that my class was being so rude they lost pm recess. I no longer had that to hold over their heads. AND I now had 15-20 minutes extra that I needed to fill with no tools.
They lost tomorrow's recess in the first half hour.
They lost the movie (oh, yes part of my sub plans was a movie) shortly after that.
We tried to work on the Social Studies worksheet she gave us. The questions were pretty straight forward but the answers were nowhere in the book. I couldn't even find them. Of course they are going to act up if they can't do the work! So we gave up on it and I did some read aloud.
During the science packet I was watching the clock. I was running out of things to do!! The kids were surprisingly engaged (at least two were kicked out though). I told them if they could continue this behavior then they could earn back the movie time. Little did they know that I had no other option!
No one watched the movie. They were talking, writing notes, throwing things, being jerks.... I told three students their job the next day was to clean the floors. Lord I hope the janitor doesn't come in and clean for them. It was DISGUSTING!
Finally, my 3 hours of these knuckleheads was over. Most of the kids had left. I looked over and not five feet away from me one was writing on the desk with a marker. Guess whose job it is to wash the desks tomorrow?
And how much do you want to bet that teacher won't follow through with the consequences I gave them?
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